Tuesday, June 26, 2007
...aNoThEr dAy....
a busy day today ...sianz was suppose to go interview the community group but in the end they last minute call tell us need to change appointment time to another day then in the end meet clarine to go dobhy ghaut eat soya bean curd...wah so long no eat ..nice sia..haha then today on diet mode....only eat 1 bowl of bean curd , 1 you tiao , 1 waffle, and 1 jap pancake and fruits for whole day ...hahathen today japanese cultural exchange wah piang damn paiseh sia...cant speak much jap...then only those broken jap spoken...and converse mostly in english...then the group partner was a jap guy ..not gal....so sad...but freaking surprised to see that their gals the skirts so short sia...even in singapore i thought only in shows and in japan the skirts will be tat short.....so many things happen ..these days....haiz...once again that question i been seeking so long...came back in my mind once again....What's life?What's true love?....life to me has always been a routine and planned schedule which i have to abide by it...failure to do so make me felt frustrated with life or very lost...without any plans....my dreams in the past had always just leave my family and friends here and start a new life in japan a place which i had always long to go ....but ever since ...i have met the one i love....i have dropped my dreams and change to a new one which is to live together and build a life together with her ....till this life..of mine ends....however....things does not goes according to what i hope.....and at the end of everything i realise ...its more of one sided love all along....love to me is something very unique and is something that should be eternal and would not change regardless of what happens.......though it depends on fate and your destiny whether its going to happen not...being in love togethers means you will always be there for the one you loves regardless what happens and build a life and share dreams together ....putting the one you love above everything...for me ..at least the one i love will always be above my family and friends as i regard her the most important person of my life....anyway ...now to me...nothing is more important then my future...i need to score many Asand master my jap...i have once again embark on my dream to migrate to japan...and leave behind everything here when the time comes...meanwhile ..i trying to connect back with those friends i have lost contact with and keep in contact with those i still contacting...uptill this part of life i have already lost quite a number of friends with reasons here and there....anyway ...now the remaining of my friends i would try to keep it and try to make more new friends and be good friends with them ....my friends.......those few tat i contacted....during my ..very down days......without you guys ...i don't know where i will be now.... guess you guys help me tide over those dark days...at least now is better...though i'm still ....emo..off and on ..but well thanks a lot ...:)my past has become memories which i tried to lock into a box and put at one side of my box....as time passess i'm starting to forget ..how i once was...and how i once behave or look....i have already broken 3 of my own principles ....no club ,no drink .and no dying hair...haha..don't know how much further i will go.......... though only go twice before ...1st time go see see, then 2nd time go in siao..dance floor dance, then uptill now is just say say but have no time and no kaki to go yet...haiz...drink..hmm now ..will allow myself to drink but haha i nv touch alcohol since tat time very down then go club drink the 2 alcoholic drinks....if i can choose what to be in life....i would choose to be the sea breeze or wind..............bringing peace and calm to people mind.....life's tiring.....sometime so lost....don't know what i'm living for...even if i accomplish what i have set for myself..so what ? ..some times juz like throwing aside everything and just go do some community work around the world till my life ends...haiz...........don't know what to type...tired and shag...continue another day....
my ite friends gathering at ...xing wang at cathay cineleisure sometime back then before i dye my hair ..haha sort of miss them cuz so long nv meet
me peiyun and zhirong my an0ther brother haha
me and the jap guy and my classmate from japanese class...sux the photo never take properly
エドワルド・マー
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