so shag today....went gym 2 hours with shuxin and clarine..then went alumni with clarine and her sister eat lunch there..haha met weng chuan at the atrium and there goes my $4 for his 2 muffins.....but well it was nice and help my friend :) haha
then evening i went dancesport...cant find the place till 45 mins later......the first few parts was still ok ..but behind got complicated...as usual my perspirating non-stop hands make my hands so wet then hold clarine hands when dance so paiseh... behind those dance steps all got wrong...
then went home after that...from afternoon ..onwards..got so emo ..and started anyhow think....haiz.........when will i be able to get pass ....i'm tired ....real tired of life... a feeling that really unable to describe with words....
nowadays people beside me either get married or attached....or people always like to ask me ...hey why don't get a gf....if not say hey so and so ..is not bad..why not you and her.... if not is ask ..why are you so pia..chiong studies......should enjoy life ma...play more....they least know that my heart is already long dead...and so dead....and only by keeping myself busy is my remaining way of survival.....i have left...what is keeping me alive is to achieve achievements...attaining honour and glory...at least i can hav some sense of fulfillment ...however all this can't fill the emptiness of the dark hole in my heart these days its getting really really really really tiring and too much for me to bear...i have none to speak to ..none who really understand me...not my parents...not my friends..even my close friends can't really understand me....
if god would give me a chance to be reborn..i would choose to be the wind....as saying come like the wind , go like the wind........ i feel like running away from this place to a place where there is no stress, no 1 i know...where i can restart my life in a peaceful and quiet environment till the end my life...
haiz guess over emo...today...haiz...............if life...was a game...i would end my life..now...too bad it's issn't.................feel like being the devil which pull the sword out of the 9th heaven and stab right into the heart of god..and declare myself ruler of the universe...and lets destroy earth and recreate it shall we..........create it where..it's a tranquil place for everyone...n0 betrayal, no hatred, no jealousy, no evil intentions...etc..
haha siaoz........liaoz me ..think i go slp ....now ...gd nitez....edward?? mah ting hui?? haha who am i now?? i don't know myself 2...
Edward Mah, Male, 22
04 November 1985
Hobbies : Watching Movies, Listening Music, Swimming, Surfing The Net
l0vEs & hAtEs
Loves to make new friends with same interests and views and eating.
Hates people who acts like close friends in front of you but stabs you in the back and dreads to eat raw food...*yUcks*
Songs:
1）Boyzone - Everyday I Love You
2) Myself;Yourself(Violin & Piano version)
3) Tank - Fei Ni Mo Shu
4) Xu Jie Er - Mei You Ni De Mei Yi Tian
5) Le Couple - Hidamari No Uta
6) Ken Hirai - Hitomi Wo Tojite
7) S.E.N.S - Forbidden Love
8) Colin Raye - Love Me
