....today after work so low morale.... and sianz......though after my short holiday in KL and sort of my mind being waked up by my frd.....n0 longer reminiscing on my past........sort of already let go of it ...and my past has become memories without any feelings left.....gg to keep that ring back where it supposed to be ....
now just feel very empty inside .... like a walking corpse without any soul in it....very chui...zzz ..off and on super low morale for nothing....why doesn't anyone understand me and my feelings....am i that complicated or irritating that i don't really have a that close friend to understand me and talk to ....haiz....or am i just too closed up in my own world....
simply cant find a reason for my existence...is it that hard to find what i been seeking so long??? eternal true love....with a person i can spend the rest of my life with ....haiz....god always just like to play around your life as if you are a puppet which indeed we are....
sometimes it just felt that the whole world has abandoned you and is enemy of yours.... people of my kind i believe though have the ability to make dreams come true ...perhaps in return ...a path of loneliness and emptiness in our hearts....zzz what am i typing i also don't know...guess just want to express the emptiness feeling i have in my heart right now...zz how i wish i can go holiday forever or disappear to some corner in the world....*sighs*... 20days more to cambodia trip...hope i can find back my lost soul and the reason of my existence....
****......i shall roam the seven seas in search of what i longed for......eternal true love.......****
Edward Mah, Male, 22
04 November 1985
Hobbies : Watching Movies, Listening Music, Swimming, Surfing The Net
l0vEs & hAtEs
Loves to make new friends with same interests and views and eating.
Hates people who acts like close friends in front of you but stabs you in the back and dreads to eat raw food...*yUcks*
Songs:
1）Boyzone - Everyday I Love You
2) Myself;Yourself(Violin & Piano version)
3) Tank - Fei Ni Mo Shu
4) Xu Jie Er - Mei You Ni De Mei Yi Tian
5) Le Couple - Hidamari No Uta
6) Ken Hirai - Hitomi Wo Tojite
7) S.E.N.S - Forbidden Love
8) Colin Raye - Love Me
